Some Weeks Later...

Due to the undiagnosed abscess I spent about 2 weeks in bed so things were pretty uneventful. I got 2 more minor ones but I caught them in time to treat them before they got any worst. I`m still a little on edge because my skin is a little hard where they were and I fear that they might come back worst especially since I`m self medicating. I want to say that I appreciate the rest of the year a lot more now that I`m mobile again but I think I`m still lazy.

  Looking back Winter Break was pretty depressing. I didn`t get to hang out with B*C at all. I spent the first 2 weeks hibernating because the 1st semester of college and finals left me exhausted. I was at home in Hikkikomori mode a lot but I had some friends over (movies, gaming and pizza), went to the mall a few times and out to eat with more friends to wrap things up. So it ended pretty well.

 I made three nail sets, 2 twinkle star sets (black and pink. I managed to loose the thumb nail to the black set in my friends car the 1st time I wore them but he was sweet enough to return it. How embarrassing...) and one I didn`t even think I was skilled to make equipped with little charms I found around the house. I also started on a lime green pair but I ran out of nails and by the time I got more I was unmotivated and not really sure what to do with them next but I`ll finish them in time.



What should I do with the the rest of the set? O.o



New Year on hold & My Resolutions ...

So I didn`t get to start this year off exactly how I planned due to that little pain I had. It turns out it wasn`t such a little thing after all but I`ll never know exactly how bad it is because my mom won`t take me to get it looked at.

Despite being in a lot of pain already, I went out yesterday and today it`s much worst. I started the day off soaking in the tub and now I have to stay in bed because I`m in so much pain that I can barely walk. I`m highly upset because I thought I could endure it again but I have some sort of abscess so I`m going to miss B*C`s New Years get together. The pain is growing worst every moment so even if I could manage to keep up with walking downtown with Lisha, spending the night at Krystal`s would be hell because it started draining and needs constant attention.

I`m actually VERY scared right now because I attempted to diagnose myself since no one will take me to see a doctor, it appears to be a cyst but I`ll just call it an abscess since I`m not sure. Either way it`s supposed to be drained by a doctor and if it gets infected I just can`t handle it.

Well here`s a list of things I want to accomplish this year:

★Get a job

★Learn how to drive

★Be more physically fit (tone up not lose weight) and healthy

★Be more confident

★Love myself more

★Be with friends and keep better contact

★Become a better artist

★Become Gal

★Learn as much as possible, to enjoy life and to be happy

Something minor (but major to me):

★Get at least one piercing ....

I FEAR NEEDLES!!!!!!!!!! I`m so serious. When I was little my mom had to hold me down and I had several accidents scrambling and fighting with doctors while they tried to give me shots. When I get my blood drawn it takes an incredibly long time and I think my blood just freezes out of fear when they put the needle in. I do have 2 holes in each ear, I got  the second holes a year or two ago and even though I didn`t feel the gun, I held the little teddy bear they kept at Claire`s just in case.

Ideally, I want to get my nose pierced since it`s the only thing my mom will allow but if I ever get the balls to go through with anything else I want something like this to keep my nose company:

I only want one labret.  I want everything close together like this as well because I like snakebites but I think  when they`re too spread out they look awkward with a labret (but I`m no expert so these might not even be snakebites).